nothing gained

I sometimes wonder why I resist things that most embrace. Be it my religion, or complete lack there of, or my diet, or desires to go out and be social, or marriage, I can't seem to grasp the things that bring happiness to most people. The typical response at this point is, "Well you're an individual, and thats great," but is it? I sometimes wonder if desires to be an individual come at the expense of happiness. "But you can choose your own path, and find your own way of defining happiness." Very true schizophrenic self, I suppose paradoxically I wanna be an individual with someone else. Oh well.